Monday, September 29, 2003


This weekend was pretty nice. On Saturday my husband and I hung out with three friends and my brother. My husband and one of my friends drained our car's radiator and also changed the thermostat. We had some BBQ and just sat around. That evening we went to the movies to see "Underworld" but the power went out before the previews started and we sat there in the theatre with the emergency lights on for about an hour. Apparently the power in the whole building went out but the theatre was the only building in that area affected for some reason. They called the electric company to fix the problem. They canceled the show and told us to get out refund and a free tix to a movie of our choice. They were going to show the movie at a later time (9:45pm). So everyone in the group except my brother, came back for the later showing.

The movie was really good! I was impressed. Pretty original idea that I hopes garners a franchise of the movie. (Sequels)

On Sunday I just stayed in the house. Slept, watched some tv, did some chores and my brother came over to do some laundry. All in all, a nice relaxing weekend. That is what I like.

Song of the Day: Rebirth of Slick (Cool Like Dat)-Digable Planet

I'm chill like dat
I'm chill...I'm chill..."

posted at 10:07 AM


Friday, September 26, 2003

Friday Five!

I think from now on, I will post the Friday Five for those Fridays in which I have hardly anything to say. Like today for instance. Regardless that it is only lunch time and I am still at work for the day. Who know what will/can happen between now and bedtime, but I am assuming nothing too exciting will be happening so I decided to create a blog entry now instead of later. So since there is really nothing heart-stopping for me to write about, I will proceed with my brand new tradition of the Friday Five. What is the Friday Five? It is a questionaire of five questions that I will answer honestly and with some entertainment (maybe). So without further ado, here they are: Today's Friday Five:

1. Who is your favorite singer/musician? Why? It is very difficult for me to answer this questions simply because I don't have an all-time favorite singer/musician. Like most people, my musical taste is very ecclectic and it spans every genre you can imagine. So to answer a question such as this would mean that there is an artist out there that stands above all others in every genre and reigns supreme in every aspect from recording, to live shows, to imagary. What is my point? I don't have one favorite artist. I have several. Which I will not list here, because it would take too long to think of them all. (Don't you just love my lengthy, pointless, confusing, answer!)

2. What one singer/musician can you not stand? Why? This one is much easier to answer for me. But again, I have more than one. Namely, Britney Spears, Beyonce Knowles (though I am warming up to her a bit), Jennifer Lopez (she is gorgeous, but she can't SING!), and The Back Street Boys (yuk). Why? Well, maybe it is because I'm sick of hearing about them and most of them with exception to Beyonce, cannot sing their way out of a paperbag. I just don't like Beyonce because I am a playa hata. Okay, I said it. I am jealous and I can't stand that she is so beautiful, young, and talented. From one light-skinned diva to another, I am jealous that she has millions in her bank account, is widely loved and adored, and is very successful all before her 26th birthday. While me on the other hand, am not rich, though I do live comfortably, I am not gorgeous (cute maybe, but not drop-dead gorgeous), I'm nearly 30 years old (that is not bad, but I love being in my 20's), and I am not widely loved and adored at least not widely. I'm loved and adored in my own little world, but not on the scale she is.

3. If your favorite singer wasn't in the music business, do you think you would still like him/her as a person? Who knows.

4. Have you been to any concerts? If yes, who put on the best show? Yep. I've been to a few concerts. The best was Disturbed so far. But that is only out of the 4 concerts I've been to in my life.

5. What are your thoughts on downloading free music online vs. purchasing albums? Do you feel the RIAA is right in its pursuit to stop people from dowloading free music? While I understand both sides of this argument, I lean more towards the free online music side of things. I could write a book about my opinions on this, but I will spare you since I have already created a novella with the previous answers to this Friday Five today.

Song of the Day: Music-Madonna

"Music, music
Music makes the people come together
Music mix the bourgeoisie and the rebel"

posted at 10:44 AM


Thursday, September 25, 2003

Running From Pain

What is needed, rather than running away or controlling or suppressing or any other resistance, is understanding fear; that means, watch it, learn about it, come directly into contact with it. We are to learn about fear, not how to escape from it.
Jiddu Krishnamurti

So I've been running away from pain. I haven't been online the last couple of days because I didn't want to face something that was painful to me. See, I was having a discussion at a forum I go to about Joey dying. Well, there was a poster who sort of rubbed me the wrong way with what they said so I posted back a very angry and combative reply. I knew when I left the web that day, that I was to come back to that forum with replies back to me. I am emotionally drained from these last couple of weeks (read previous posts), and I was not in the mood or mindset to argue about my pet's death. So I ran. I ran away from my fear of my stomach knotting up when I read the replies and had to defend myself even more. I ran away from my fear of having to deal with something that was very painful to me again. I am trying to move on from my furbaby's death, but having to go back and keep arguing about it is like pouring salt into an open flesh wound. How can you heal if you keep picking at it?

Now I know you are wondering how that forum had to do with this blog. Well, I am a creature of habit. When I log on I generally visit a list of sites while I am surfing online. That forum is one of them. So I knew that if I logged on to add to my blog, that I would also visit that forum out of pure habit. It was easier for me to stay off line.

I've dealt with it now. I've gone back to that forum and replied, whereby another argument ensued from a heartless poster who wants to know why I dare compare the death of a pet to the death of a human. This person doesn't understand how people can say that they love their pets as they would/do a child. Anyways, I was more able to deal with it today then I was yesterday or the day before. It is amazing how cruel a person can be to someone who is in pain. But that is the way of the world I guess.

I feel better that I was able to face it all and get it over with, but now I am embarressed that I would run from my pain that way. I know it is human nature and that everyone runs from something (smoking, drinking, drugs, ect), but still. It does feel better to get all of that off my shoulders. *ahhhhh*

Song of the Day: Stuck in a Moment-U2

"You've got to get yourself together
You've got stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it
Oh love, look at you now
You've got yourself stuck in a moment
And you can't get out of it"

posted at 5:38 PM


Monday, September 22, 2003


I hate the dentist. I had to go get two cavities filled today. Now don't get me wrong. I like my dentist. He is kind, considerate and professional. I just don't like getting cavities filled (who doesn't?). First off, I hate needles. Please foget the steel rod piercing my tongues as I speak. But like I told my dentist, for some reason his injections don't hurt as bad as injections at the doctor's office. Odd I know.

Anyways, the fun didn't stop there. Apparently, my bottom tooth's cavity wasn't quite all the way numb yet. So I felt the drill. That was pain like you wouldn't imagine. It only lasted a minute or less though. Thank God.

Then I gagged half a dozen times for no reason at all when the dental assistant was trying to use the vacuum on my back teeth. Granted, I do have a gag-reflex, but I have discovered, it is mind over matter with me. If I THINK about it I will gag. So I felt really bad that I kept gagging. So I made myself count to five silently and relax. That worked and I didn't gag anymore. I was so embarressed though.

So now, my whole right side of my face is numb. It is 6:46pm and it won't wear off for another couple of hours. That means no eating dinner until late. I am starving! Oh well. Better that then to accidently bite down on the inside of my mouth and not realize it until I taste blood. *yuk*

Song of the Day: Dentist-Little Shop of Horrors

"You'll be a dentist
You have a talent for causing things pain
Son, be a dentist
People will pay you to be inhumane"

posted at 4:51 PM


Sunday, September 21, 2003

Just Wanna Be Disconnected

Sorry I haven't updated in a few days. I needed some time away from the computer. I actually had to force myself to log on today since I don't want to spend too much of my Sunday online.

I am starting to accept the fact that my little furbaby is gone and that he is never coming back. I know he is much happier where he is and that life goes on.

I've been reading like crazy this weekend to get my mind off of everything. It was a very stressful week last week. Between watching tv, reading, and sleeping all weekend, I hope I am very refreshed for the week ahead.

Hopefully I can get a nice sized group together for some partying on Saturday the 27th. I am aiming for a karaoke bar but we'll see.

Song of the Day: Mother Mother-Tracy Bonham

"I'm hungry,
I'm dirty,
I'm losing my mind...
Everything's fine!"

posted at 3:19 PM


Thursday, September 18, 2003

Death of a Furbaby



We just dropped our pet ferret Joey off at the vet to be put down. We just didn't want to make him suffer any more. As of this morning, his jaw wouldn't open and the vet thinks between that and his back legs being paralyzed, his nervous system was shutting down. I feel better that he is at peace now and isn't suffering but I am just so sad because I am going to miss him like crazy.

Making the decision to put a family pet asleep is very hard. One one hand you want your pet to live as long as possible so that you can have more time with them, but on the other hand, the pet is suffering and to prolong it just because you want to spend more time with them is probably not humane. It is tough either way.

Something that is helping me get through this hard time is the fact that in let's say 200 years, no human and no animals that are breathing now will be alive. And if you think about all eternity, 200 years is a blink of an eye. So thinking along those lines makes me feel better, because I know I will be with everyone that I love who has passed on, soon in relation to eternity.

Okay, that was all very depressing. I just wanna end this by saying: I love you Joey and may God keep you safe until I see you again one day.

Song of the Day: I Will Remember You-Sarah McLachlan

"And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don't let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories"

posted at 3:31 PM


Wednesday, September 17, 2003

Anticipation is the Worst

Notice how my week is just getting better and better? Phones went good today! It is true, the anticpation is much worse then the actual thing. I was blessed that I didn't get any complicated phone calls or phone calls with rude or mean people. Not saying that it won't happen, but at least it didn't happen on my very first day on the phones.

Joey, my ferret, is back to not doing so well today. He is very lethargic, not eating, and is weaker than yesterday. My only guess is that yesterday he had a great day, he ate, stood up on his front legs (his hind legs are too weak), and he was alert, so my theory is that he wore himself out. So today he has no energy. My husband is thinking worse. He thinks that Joey is just dying a slow, painful death and that we should just put him down. The vet is supposed to be calling us here soon today and I am having my husband ask her about liquid vitamins as a option since he isn't eating (that could be what is making him so weak and thin), and to tell her about his actions between yesterday and today. If nothing looks promising, he needs to ask her about how she feels about possibly putting him down. I am hoping it won't come to that and that he either gets better or he passes peacefully when God is ready for him.

Let's see, what else is happening to me these days....nothing really. Just work and my sick ferret really.

Found this cute quiz and I couldn't resist "borrowing it".

1. Is the name you have now the same name that's on your birth certificate? If not, what's changed? Yes

2. If you could change your name (first, middle and/or last), what would it be? I wouldn't. I like my name now.

3. Why were you named what you were? (Is there a story behind it? Who specifically was responsible for naming you?) No story really. Nothing interesting.

4. Are there any names you really hate or love? What are they and why? I love names like Ashlyn, Olivia, Brett, Austin, Kasia, Morgan. I dislike old fashioned names like Bertha, Fred, ect. Just my opinion.

5. Is the analysis of your name at / / astroexpert accurate? How or how isn't it?

Brief Analysis

The name of Nicole has created a congenial nature with the desire to associate in friendship and understanding both socially and in the business world. Peaceful and settled conditions appeal to you and you are naturally desirous of having the security of a home, where your life could follow a definite pattern, and where you would not have to make major decisions. You find it difficult to take a definite stand, partly because you lack confidence, and also because you dislike any issues which create dissension between people. Procrastination is a weakness of your nature, causing an inability always to complete your plans or to concentrate for long. You need to see a concept presented completely in detail before you can understand it, and if you cannot understand it, you come to your own conclusion and often fail to listen to and reason out another's point of view. You resist being forced into change and could become almost impervious to new ideas. You desire refinement, understanding, and appreciation, yet sometimes your outward attitude does not reveal your innermost feelings, and thus you have never felt truly understood.

Song of the Day: Jam-Michael Jackson

"She Pray To God, To Buddha
Then She Sings A
Talmud Song
Confusions Contradict"

posted at 3:33 PM


Tuesday, September 16, 2003

Today Was A Good Day
It was a good day! I am feeling more and more better about going onto the phones at work. I know I will still be nervous as hell tomorrow when I have to start taking calls sometime later in the day, but I feel better about it then I did this past weekend.

My ferret is doing a little better today. He seems to be getting some strength back. It is a day to day thing so he could take a turn for the worse any moment, but I feel better that he is getting well compared to the other day. I went to all the forums I post at to tell my friends that I wouldn't be there for a while since my ferret is dying, but I may be back sooner than I thought if my ferret gets well.

Keeping praying and sending positive vibes my way for my ferret and my job. If you have already been doing that, I just wanna say "Thanks!" it is working!!

Song of the Day: It Was A Good Day-Ice Cube

"Today I didn't even have to use my A.K.
I got to say it was a good day (shit!)"

posted at 3:09 PM


Monday, September 15, 2003


Today went by nicely! Phones training is okay. I am getting more and more confident about it since I've heard so many people telling me that is really is not that bad.

My ferret seems to be getting better. He is still very weak, but he is getting his color back and it looking all around better. So he might be okay in the long-run. He hasn't been eating so he is deadly thin. While his color is better, he is still so weak he can't walk. Now we are feeding him soft cat food and he seems to be loving that.

Another thing I was not looking forward to today was my dental appointment. This is a true story by the way:

When I got home from work today I was dreading having to go to the denist office. I have another appointment next Monday and then another one that Wednesday. So this month really sucks for me. So anyways, as I was walking up the stairs at home to brush my teeth for the appointment, I was thinking. "That would be awesome if they would call me up to cancel because the dentist had to leave early or something. I wonder if dentists ever call in sick. I doubt it though since dentists and doctors seem to have a solid work ethic and won't miss it unless they absolutely had no choice." I reluctantly went and brushed my teeth, cleaned my piercing and rinced with an off-brand Listerine.

I was also starving since I hadn't eaten since lunch. But I knew better then to eat right before a dental appt. So we sat around for a minute and then left for the appt. We get to the dental office and I walk to the reception desk to check in. The lady at the desk told me that the dentist went home sick and that another employee had kept trying to call me all day to let me know. Well since I was in training class, my phone was disconnected and in the training class with me. So no calls were coming through. For future references, I gave them my cell phone #. Though I could swear I did that shortly after I got my cell phone. But oh well. At least I didn't have to go to the dentist! Yay!

Tomorrow will be cool. More training, no dental appointments , and another day another dollar.

Song of the Day: Feelin' So Good-Jennifer Lopez

"It became so clear to me that everything is going my way
I feel like there's no limit to what I can see
Got rid of fears that were holding me"

posted at 4:38 PM


Sunday, September 14, 2003

A Bad Week Ahead?

I got my hair braided yesterday. It went very well! We got done in time and I am very happy with the end result. So it looks like I will be getting my hair done with her every two months now to keep them up.

My ferret is sick again and may not make it this time. I can't tell you how sad I am. The vet has him on a series of meds so I really hope he bounces back. The vet has no idea what is wrong with him. He had a bleeding ulcer which almost killed him back in April. The vet doesn't know if that is what he is sick with again. She said he may have cancer and the ulcers were treated and he got better, but the cancer was still there the whole time. These are all educated guesses. For now we are treating him with the same medicines we treated him when he had his ulcers. We hope it helps him.

This next week is going to be very stressful for me. I train on phones and I have a dental appointment, as well as my ferret having a good chance of not making it through the week. Also, our department at work is being audited this week. So yeah, there is lots of negative things going on this next week and I am not looking forward to it at all.

I am also bummed out because I was supposed to mail my cousin's package to him in Iraq, on August 29th. I had to postpone so that I could afford the postage, so I waited until this payday. Well, due to our ferret getting sick, I am not able to mail his package afterall. So now I have to wait another 2 weeks before I can mail it. I feel so bad because he really wants this package. It takes about 2 or 3 weeks for him to recieve packages so he is expecting to see it any day now, but I haven't mailed it yet. I feel so bad.

Song of the Day: Rescue-Ashanti

"Take me away to another place rescue me
Save me, save me, save me"

posted at 8:51 AM


Friday, September 12, 2003

RIP Johnny Cash

and RIP John Ritter

John Ritter's death was an absolute shock to me this morning! I was on Yahoo and I glanced at the headlines on the side. I read 'Actor John Ritter died' or something like that and I had to read it three times before it sunk in. I thought it was another old actor I had never heard of and not the well known actor that is still on tv. I clicked on the link and sure enough it is him. One of the stars from Threes Company and the new show 8 Simple Rules For Dating My Daughter.

My thoughts and prayers are with Johnny and John's friends and families.

Tomorrow is gonna be interesting. I will be getting braids put in and I haven't had them for about 6 months. One of my best friends used to braid me every two months or so, but she is having some very serious personal problems so she has retired from braiding for a while. So I am going back to the girl who used to braid me years ago.

I'm nervous about getting them done again by her since I am so used to my friend doing them, and I have to wake up at 7am so that really sucks. Braids take between 5-12 hours to put in. The woman doing my braids is saying she'll be done in 5-6 hours. She has to be because she has other commitments later that day. So that is another reason I am worried, what if it takes longer? *ack!*

Well, the picture you see of the braids from that link is not what mine are going to look like. Mine are from the middle on down. They are only braided half way down so the rest of the curly hair is left undone. It is nice!!

On to another topic now.


Here is a true story. I have never taken a classified ad out and I have never responded to them either. For no reason, I've just never had a desire to. But one time I was reading through the band/musician section of a newspaper and I see that a band in my area is looking for a pop style female singer. As most of my friends know, I love to sing. So I called the number listed in the ad and a guy picks up. After inquiring about the position, he goes on this long monolouge about how wonderful their lead singer was and that she moved out to LA to try her hand at fame. He keeps saying through the whole thing how he thinks it will be very very hard to find a replacement because "so-and so had the best voice I've ever heard", blah, blah, blah. So after letting him go on and on about this wonderful lady I finally got him to shut up long enough for me to try to end the conversation. He told me that if I wanted to audition, to call back with a time since I was not ready to set one up then. I never called back.

That particular situation is sort of like meeting someone who just broke up with their significant other and on your first date with that person, all they can talk about is how wonderful their ex is and how doubtful they are that anyone can ever be as good as their ex. I seriously doubt you would ask that person for a second date. That was the same feeling I had about that phone convo.

I have never responded to a classified ad since then.

Funny Classified Ads

Another Funny Classified Ad Link

See Susan Smith's Online Love Ad

Song of the Day: Want Ads-Honey Cone

"Oh I'm gonna put it in the want ads, I need somebody new
Gonna put it in the want ads, my man and I are through
Gonna put it in the want ads, this girl's in misery
Gonna put it in the want ads, please somebody rescue me"

posted at 6:27 PM


Thursday, September 11, 2003

In Memory of 9/11

Care For A Rub?

Today was pretty boring at work again. Nothing interesting to report.

Oh! Here is a snippet of a funny convo me and my honey had last night:

Me: "My neck is killing me!"
Hubby: "Oh."
Me: "Honey, can you rub my neck?"
Hubby: "No"
Me: "Why not?"
Hubby: "It's your neck, you rub it!"

In defense of hubby. He is a sweet heart really, but I am a bitcher and moaner and I complain none stop all day, so when he gets sick of hearing me complain, this is usually his reaction to it. I wasn't injured or anything, my neck just got a weird shooting pain in it and I wanted to be babied. My mom raised a princess! (My favorite new line)

While listening to This American Life today, I stumbled upon a good story about an awesome magazine. It is called Found . It is a magazine that takes found pictures, notes, and letters and publishes them. The object isn't to find the lost owners, but rather to show how entertaining and interesting discarded notes and letters and photos can be. The site has some of the found items on it, but to get the whole shabang, you have to order the magazine. I am enjoying the site for now!

Random thoughts: "Celebs" that I am sick of hearing of:
1. Kelly Clarkson
2. The Bachelor/The Bacherlorette
3. Ryan Seacrest

Song of the Day: Don't You Want Me-Human League

"Don't you want me baby? Don't you want me - oh
Don't you want me baby? Don't you want me - oh"

posted at 5:35 PM


Wednesday, September 10, 2003

If anyone has been following the show on ABC called The Family, I just gotta say, I am so disappointed in who won.

I cannot stand the mother, father and son. And of course the son won.

But the end wasn't so bad. He decided to share his million dollar fortune with the whole family so everyone including the winner walked away with $100K each! That was sweet of him.

posted at 8:10 PM



I now have a link on the side column that will take you to 100 Things About Me. It took me forever to complete it! Writing 100 things about yourself is harder than you think! I'm just glad it is finished. *whew*

Work was work. Nothing new, nothing interesting.

So it is official, I will be trained on the phones portion of my job next week. I am nervous because I have not done phone work in 5 years, but I am a little excited to be doing something else for a change. Plus, if I do phones full time one day, I will get more money! YAY!

Can you believe it? I have absolutley nothing to talk about today. So I will leave you with today's...

Song of the Day: Cheers Darlin-Damien Rice

"Cheers darlin'
Here's to you and your lover boy
Cheers darlin'"

posted at 6:39 PM


Tuesday, September 09, 2003

Miscellaneous Dixie will understand the joke with this title.

Okay, this entry is going to go everywhere and not have any theme. There are just some things I need to get off my chest so to speak.

Plain versus Decorated:

Why is it that some people in Cubicle Hell have their boring grey walls all decorated with family pictures, posters, and colorful things while others choose to leave their cubicles plain, grey and void of anything personal? I understand that some employers have policies disallowing too many personal nic nacs in the workplace, but how can you explain people who work in offices where it is okay to have things on your walls just so it is tasteful? So what category does yours truly fall under? I am the picture loving cubicle freak. I have pictures, posters and comics all over the place. There is so little grey showing that you would wonder what color my walls are!

This American Life:

Yay! I was able to figure out how to listen to past episodes of This American Life at work! I had to download Real Player and that is it. Now I can listen to that all day since I can never catch it on the weekends live. Yay me!!

Cops, Military, Weight:

This topic has been grating my nerves for I don't know how long. But I put forth to you a very good question; How come our police force does not make weight limits stricter for their cops? Especially their beat cops. The military requires all soldiers to be at a certain weight limit (for their height and gender and age), the soliders also have to successfully complete certain physical training requirements every so often. Why? Because we don't want a bunch of out of shape people defending our country! Welllll, why can't the same be said for Law Enforcement? Those folks fight small wars everyday on the streets. They have to chase suspects, be quick, and have stamina. Having an overweight cop who can't even run a half mile to save his life is probably not the best person to have protecting our streets. I am not trying to be mean here. Hell, I have a weight issue myself. But it would just make more sense to have people who were in shape and able to chase these bad guys. If the military makes their soliders stay in good physical shape, then I feel Law Enforcement should do the same.

10 Things I Can Stand To Change About Myself:

1. Gossiping- I really need to work on that. I dislike others for doing it, so I should take the high road and put an end to it myself.
2. Not being so lazy- I think more of my goals, both big and small would get done if I would just get off my ass and do them.
3. Listening more- Talk, talk, talk. I need to start listening more and talking less.
4. Not worrying so much- I worry so much I give myself heartburn and chest pains. This has been happening the last year or so and I've noticed when I relieve the stress of worrying, the pains go away.
5. Working out- This one is closely related to #2. I need to start working out more often and not making excuses.
6. Eating less junk- This is also related to #2. I am an emotional eater so I should get counseling if that is the only way for me to stop overeating and eating unhealthy. If that is what it takes, that is what I should do. Honestly.
7. Stop being so jealous- It seems I want what everyone else has from babies to new cars. I should be happy with what I have and not stress so much about what other people have.
8. Limit my unwarranted advice- I have a bad habit of giving friends advice whether they asked or not. I should just be there for them to vent and not pester them with advice and opinions unless they want them. Sometimes people just need someone to listen to them.
9. Stop being intimidated- I have come a LONG way from the days when I used to be intimidated by everyone, but I still have some work to do. I think I may suffer from social anxiety at times.
10. Be a better friend- I need to work on that. I think if I can do #1-9 on this list, then this one will come naturally.

Song of the Day: Where Is The Love-Black Eyed Peas

"What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma"

posted at 4:42 PM


Monday, September 08, 2003


Today went by a lot better than I expected at work! I am so happy for that.

If you notice, I have the image back!! YAY!!!! I am way excited about that. I really love that image. Besides, I just invited a bunch of my friends to my blog and most of them will be seeing it soon. I didn't want them to come into a halfway empty blog! You know what I mean, right ladies?

Random Link

Anyways, while surfing other people's blogs I noticed a few that had Paypal accounts for people to donate to various things from college educations to their bills. Is it too harsh for me to say to these people, "Get a job and quit your begging!". I would love for someone to pay my bills too, but I'd rather work overtime at work or get a second job before I would beg my blog readers to donate their hard-earned cash. *sigh* Some people. *shaking head in disgust*

Song of the Day: Test of My Faith-Petey Pablo

"I wanna tell im dead broke and im bout to go crazy
half a tank of gas, two ciggaretts
scrapping up change in the ashtray
then the voices its only a test of my faith"

posted at 5:25 PM


No Image!

My cute image isn't showing up! The free host I am going through might be having some technical problems. I just emailed them and am awaiting an answer. Until then, there will be a big blank spot above this entry.

For those of you who are visiting for the first time, please excuse the mess. I just moved in and am trying to get my image to work.

Update!! There is now an image. Thanks to the good folks at Village Photos for their quick responses and their big help. :D

As for other things going on in my day, stay tuned, I will add things tonight.

posted at 10:58 AM


Sunday, September 07, 2003

Ack! I just found the blog of someone that I work with! That was just creepy and weird. She isn't a friend of mine so it is not like I can just tell her tomorrow at work that I found her blog online. This is why you don't use first and last names (real ones) in your blog. I would have never known it was her, but her real name is in the title of her blog and she has a link to our employer on her links list. *ewwww*

Okay, that was just weird. {Insert Twilight Zone theme music here}

posted at 8:42 PM


A Cool Quiz

1. What time is it? 5:00pm
2. Name? Nicole
3. Name as it appears on birth certificate? Nicole
4. Nicknames? Nikki
5. Number of candles on your last birthday cake? 26
6. Birthday? July 1977
7. Pets? 2 cats, 2 ferrets
8. Hair color? Brown
9. Piercing? Tongue (oh yeah baby!!!)
10. Eye color? Grey with contacts.
11. Hometown? Nowhere
12. Town you live in? Someplace
13. Favorite foods? Cheeseburgers, pizza, anything sweet!
14. Ever been to Africa? No
15. Been toilet papering? No
16. Love someone so much it made you cry? Yes
17. Been in a car accident? Yes
18. Croutons or bacon bits? Bacon Bits
19. Favorite day of the week? Saturday
20. Favorite Restaurant? Too many to name
21. Taste great or less filling? Taste great
22. Favorite flower? Roses
23. Favorite sport to watch? Gymnastics
24. Favorite Drink? Milk
25. Favorite ice cream flavor? Strawberry Cheesecake
26. Disney or Warner Bros.? Warner Bros.
27. Favorite fast food restaurant? Wendys
28. What color is your bedroom? White
29. How many times did you fail your drivers test? That is a closely guarded secret.
30. Before this one, whom did you get your last e-mail? N/A
31. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Wal-Mart
32. What do you do most often when you are bored? Play the computer or sleep.
33. Most annoying thing people ask you? "What is your hometown?"
34. Bedtime? 11pm
35. Who will respond to this email the quickest? Not an email.
36. Who is the person you sent this to that is not likely to respond?N/A
37. Favorite TV shows? Too many to name.
38. Last person you went out to eat with? My husband
39. Ford or Chevy? Chevy
40. Time you finished this e-mail? 5:05pm Damn, that was quick!

Quote of the times: "The fine for falsely pulling the fire alarm in the dorm is $1,000. The fine for setting an actual fire in the dorm is $100. So, I figure if I happen to pull the fire alam, I'll just set a fire in the hall and save myself $900. It's a great plan. "

posted at 3:14 PM


Lazing and Work

As you may have noticed, or not, I changed the template of the blog. Like it? I found it at this web site dedicated to blog skins. I think this new skin is more me and I am very happy with it.

Another feature that you may notice is different is that I have taken out the comment feature at the end of the entries. Looking at this blog, you will notice that there are already two ways to contact me. There is the feedback button that you can direct emails to me, and there is a Guestmap in which you can leave a message for everyone to see. I figured the comment feature on every entry was a bit much.

Other than all of these changes I've made on the blog, I've done absolutely nothing today. I'm still in my PJs and just lazing around the house today.

Tomorrow for most of the day, I will be training a co-worker on a part of the job. I am not looking forward to this at all. I also found out that I will be getting trained on the phones portion of my job sometime this month. *Yuk* Another thing I am not looking forward to. At least they will only put me on "back up" status for now until I get used to it. I have a feeling that eventually, I will be put as a frontrunner and will be taking calls all freakin' day. I've lasted three years in this department without having to be put on the phones, so this is like the very bottom of the food chain for me now. I am becoming prey now. But oh well, at least I will be getting more money for this. What bothers me is that I have made it clear that I did not want to be on the phones, but I was sort of bullied into it and now I am expected to do it. Kinda underhanded if you ask me, but that is how I hear management has always worked where I am. Oh well.

Song of the Day: Stuck-Stacie Orrico

"You kept me hanging on a string
Why you make me cry
I tried to give you everything
But you just gave me lies"

posted at 2:08 PM


Saturday, September 06, 2003

Cruel Summer

This morning I woke up in very high spirits. I was elated that it is the weekend and I was excited about the day ahead. My husband and I were going to have a very small cook-out with only about 5 or 6 people. The reason we didn't invite the whole group was simply because we decided to have this thing the day before and I didn't want to make a huge thing of it. So I was really excited to be able to hang out with a small group of friends and have some BBQ, watch some movies and connect.

Unfortunately not everyone could show up. That's okay, we are all pretty tired from the week. It wound up being just three of us for most of the day and then another friend stopped by for about an hour and then left because he was so tired. My brother and his baby and her mommmy came over and stayed for about an hour as well.

Now we have enough food to feed a small village! So if anyone is in the mood for some BBQ ribs, chicken, steak, hamburgers, and some cake, come on over and I'll make you a plate. *lol*

Luckily, tomorrow is football day so we are having a couple of friends over to watch the game(s) and we'll be able to eat the left overs. :D

For now I am just chillin'.

Song of the day: Cruel Summer-Bananarama

"The city is crowded, my friends are away, and I'm on my own
it's too hot to handle so I gotta get up and go, and go

It's a cruel, (cruel) cruel summer
leaving me here on my own
it's a cruel, (it's a cruel) cruel summer
now you're gone
you'e not the only one"

posted at 6:28 PM


Friday, September 05, 2003

To Friend or Not To Friend

I wrote a list of everything I wanted to put in my blog today, but typical of the day, I left it at work. *sigh* Oh well. I can always add them some other time.

Today was just so hectic. I was being pulled ten different ways at work today. Luckily, I got it all done before I had to go home. *Yay me!* I have to keep reminding myself that it is Friday. I keep thinking it is Thursday. Must have been the holiday on Monday that is throwing me off. But TGIF! It's been a hectic week.

I need to call my acquaintance friend to set up a time for her to braid my hair next weekend. I tried calling Wednesday but I got some major attitude from her daughter or someone. She wasn't home so I need to try again. Now I am is not the right word...I am nervous about calling back again. I am just not in any mood to deal with attitude from anyone right now. After that whole blow up with Norman earlier this week, I am drained of strength to handle attitude and meaness. I may call her tomorrow.

Speaking of Norman. It seems we are no longer friends anymore. I sent him an email explaining to him why I felt he was wrong about what he did last Saturday night. He replied telling me that he thinks that he is still right and I think that I am still right, but that he was willing to bury the hatchet and move on. The issue with me about that email was that in the beginning of the email he said that I pointed at him and demanded to be taken home which kicked off the whole thing. Without going back into the long story, I will just say, I did not point my finger at him and demand him do anything. That is why I am so frustrated.

So anyways, we kept emailing back and forth about it and I concluded by saying that I just cannot be friends with someone who continues to believe that I used them and demanded that they do something. Even though he wanted to let things go, how could I stay friends with someone who thinks I used them? If I was guilty and I had used him and demanded him, I would have happily accepted his olive branch, but the fact is, I did NOT use him and I did NOT demand him to take me home. Those are some strong feelings from him and therefore it reflects on my character. I just can't hang out with someone who thinks it is in my character to use someone. I just can't.

On one hand, I feel soooo relieved to have this over with. But on the other hand, it always stings to lose a friend. I know I will get over it, but it is still hard for me. Sort of like a break-up. You know you'll move on, but it still hurts. That is where I stand now. I just thank God for the friends I do have. The friends who have listened to me vent about this whole thing, the friends who helped me through this, and especially for my husband who stuck by my decision no matter what.

Song of the Day: Bother-Stone Sour

"Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying...Diaries left
with cryptic entries"

posted at 5:27 PM


Thursday, September 04, 2003

Apples and Hell...Apple Hell?

Nothing is working for me. Everytime I try posting the results to my Dante's Inferno quiz, the page loads all funny but it might just be me...I will post it now:

I am not really that bad am I? (look below)

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Purgatory (Repenting Believers)Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)Very High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)Very Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Work was blah today. I swear I have a supervisor that is sadistic. This person actually gets giddy with excitement when he describes busting people talking or doing things they shouldn't be doing. He is even known to enjoy bragging about the number of people he has had to fire in his time with the company. It is sick the joy he gets from these kind of things. Like I said, it is sadistic. So, I try to stay far away from him as I am sure you can't blame me for.
So anyways, I will be moving to another work group soon so I won't have to deal with him as often, though I will still be under him since I will still be in the same department. But at least I won't be directly underneath his thumb so to speak.

Other than that, there is nothing new really. I started that apple diet today. See, apples aren't my favorite fruit so I just know I will get sick of the stuff after two or three days of this. But I will keep going. Though that thought brings me to an observation...

How come most people (including myself) prefer fruits like peaches, nectarines, strawberries, ect over the cheaper fruits such as apples and oranges! I mean I even prefer the more expensive tangerine to the orange for goodness sake! Now, when I say "prefer" I mean taste-wise. Peaches, strawberries, grapes, tangerines, ect just taste soooo much better than apples and oranges. Can you imagine if those fruits were just as cheap as apples!! I mean, one bag of apples costs about $2.00. For a bag that big of peaches that would cost a person an arm and a leg!! Okay, I'm thinking too deep now aren't I?

Another observation while we are on the subject of apples:

I enjoy apple pie over cherry pies but I would rather fresh cherries rather than fresh apples; I like apple cobblers, apple pie, apple strusel, candied apples, applesauce, ect. But I do not like apple flavored candy or REAL apples. I wonder if I am alone in this thought. If you agree with me, please click that little comment link that will appear at the end of this entry and tell me that I am not alone and crazy on this subject. :)

Song of the Day: Big Yellow Taxi-Counting Crows

"Hey farmer, farmer, put away your DDT
I don't care about spots on my apples,
Leave me the birds and the bees

posted at 4:02 PM


Wednesday, September 03, 2003

New Additions

Like the way I decorated the place? I'm giddy as a school girl here. *hee hee* Granted, things may change in the future when I find new toys to put in here, but for now, enjoy all the new additions!

Here they are (the new additions that is):

1. I added an About Me box. Kinda corny, I know. But I just couldn't resist.

2. A feedback button on the right column so that you can email me if you need to.

3. Small text ads for other people's blogs. I am in there to so my blog is being advertised on someone else's blog right now! Yay!

4. Comment feature on each entry I post. You can leave a comment about that particular entry if you so desire. :)

Have fun playing with all the little toys!

Song of the day: Anything by New Edition

posted at 5:42 PM


Cable Heaven!

Aaaaamen! And cable has been turned on!! You have to understand the importance of this. We have been cable-less since Feb.! That is 7 months without tv. We were able to at least get some channels using an antenna but those channels would come in very badly.

I've been literally staring at the tv for the past 5 minutes like I am in some kind of trance. Damn commercialism. *lol* Luckily, I don't have to be back to work until 1:00pm. YAY!

Alrighty, I am signing out for now. I may be back later today after work. Bye!

Note: Check out the text ad for other people's blogs on the bottom of the right hand column. The ad will change every time you come back. :)

Song of the Day: Kind and Generous-Natalie Merchant

"I want to thank you
Oh, I want to thank you, thank you; thank you, thank you
I want to thank you, thank you; thank you, thank you"

posted at 9:34 AM


Tuesday, September 02, 2003

Tired, Computer, Cable, and Iraq

Home from work now. The day went by very fast and I am grateful for that, but I sure did get really sleepy towards the last few hours of work. Now that I am home, I am more awake but still a little tired.

I don't know what is up with my computer but it took me 30 minutes to get online. I decided to try turning my DSL box off for 10 seconds and then back on and now the net is working as normal.

Every since those viruses hit, the internet has been slow or down with SBC. Also, my computer acts really slow. I've run Norton Antivirus several times and it never finds any viruses. I even downloaded the patch and ran the Blaster removal tool and it never found it. But my computer continues to run slow. It is not the memory either because I am not even using half the memory of the computer yet. Who knows.

So anyhoo, we get cable tomorrow! Yippeee! Anytime from 8-noon. We are going into work 3.5 hours late so we can be here when the cable person comes over. I hope they come early so that I can watch some tv before I have to be at work!

I got two letters from my cousin who is in Baghdad now. He told me that him and his soliders were shot at when three cars pulled up and men jumped out of the cars. They were shot at but my cousin and his fellow soliders shot back and got one in the back and one in the ankle. I am just thanking the Lord that nothing happened to my cousin. The war is technically over, but there are still soldiers dying and being wounded out there in record numbers.

Please continue to pray for our troops out there. It is not over until every last one of them come home.

Song of the day: Soldiers Heart-R Kelly

"You stood on the front lines
You led the way, out of the darkness
We didn't go astray
You were ready to die for our sake
And that takes a soldier's heart"

posted at 5:47 PM


Monday, September 01, 2003

Watching Movies and Love For Family

Today was much better than Saturday night. After that night I just chilled at home and watched movies for two days with my husband. It was nice. I would nap on the couch and then wake up and watch another movie. I am dreading going back to work tomorrow since I am having a nice ol time sitting around doing absolutely nothing.

I am watching the news and I am hearing about a man who lost his children and wife to a flash flood in Emporia, Kansas. That is so sad. It really brings some perspective to life and how lucky I am to have people who love me even amongst all of this drama at work (see previous posts) and that issue with Norman on Saturday.

Well, I am off to look for things to dress up this weblog a little more (I'm still decorating).

Song of the day: We Are Family-Sister Sledge

"Ev'ryone can see we're together
As we walk on by
(FLY!) and we fly just like birds of a feather
I won't tell no lie"

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